Victim

Walking in the dark alley,

Looking around, people have fun with their companion.

 While, me

Walking helplessly needed air that block the air ways. What happen? Had I been becoming unneeded to the human kind? I the unwanted child being born in this world And it really hurt Being an average child living in the genius family genes, I am nothing more than a parasite to them That really is what I been thinking since the depression that kept on budging me when I step to the world of adulthood. My world has change, why can’t I move on like what I did to others? Motivated people, while if stay at the same spot for the last 3 years, why can’t I move on? Why won’t my feet take a step to the future? Because I am scared

Scared of what I will face… Oh, I get it I just afraid that I will get hurt and my wound just would never stop bleeding Again And Again Repeatedly As I was deep in taught, I accidentally bump onto someone and make us fall flat on the ground. I look at the victim that I accidentally bump off.

I look in front of me, a guy wearing his black leather and a tank top that printed his face, going further down, his belt that has skeleton and his glittering pants that shone as the sunlight hit it, his black boot, I looked up to see the owner of the clothes there, I was mesmerised with his face, a thick brown knitted eyebrows that show the painful, a long eyelash, a round nose, a thin lip, a round cheeks and not so over face, his hair are black jack and somehow, his cow-lick hair matching his charm. His eyes open and looked at me and give an apologetic smile.

“I am very sorry my Karamatsu Girl” He said and stand up and give his hand for me to reach his. Hesitantly, i slowly reached his hand. To my surprise he easily pulled me and unexpectedly, I bump to his body as I lost balance.

My face lit up and look down, but I could hear his heart beat faster than regular human being, I looked up, to see his face turn red as tomato.

“T-thank you for your kindness” I push slowly from his body and looked down, trying to comfort my heart and nodded

 “for you, my Karamatsu Girl, I would do anything just for you”, he said and give blue rose that come out from nowhere. I took it and smile sheepishly. I search something from my clothes that I could give him in return of his rose.

“Ermm, i here, thank you for the lovely flower”, I said and looked down, closing my eyes.

 Silence.

 Another rejection, suddenly, I heard a soft sobbing coming in front of me. A hand softly hug mine, gently grip tighter, I looked up and there the lad crying.

“T-thank you”, his hoarse voice that he try hide the fact his crying, trying to look cool I look at his shoulder that keep on shivering and slump down, those tears are not fake like i usually seen it is pure and innocent yet sincere. I pulled him into a hug, I hug him as tightly as I can, trying to give him some of my courage that left inside me.

“Well done, you have done well! Good job!”

 I said to his ear, softly, despite how small I am from him, I manage to encounter it as his crying keep on grow louder and louder and i have to pull him to the hotel book a room for us. I pulled him as I rubbed his back trying to calm him down.

Hours had passed by and his sob decrease, I could feel his small shudder as he takes a breath eventually, he falls asleep and I put him into the bed. I gently rubbed his cheek and kiss his forehead. I look at the sky, night has embraced us, he took it all by himself while me a battle that has no end isn't? I feel sleepy and look at the bed that has king size that i have put him in, but I choose to stay awake as I don't want to bother him and his private life. I crawl to the couch and I cuddle myself to warm my body.

Seeing him crying makes me feel sad and relief, he... I looked at my hands He accepts my hug. I lost conscious and sleep in the sitting position.

 Sunlight managed to break between the curtain and hit my face. I wake up and looked at my phone.

9 o'clock in the morning, I looked at him Hiss eyes are swollen, I forgot to put damp towel on his eyes.

I walk to the bathroom and soak the towel with warm water. Slowly, I put the towel on his eyes. I sit next to him. Caress his cheek, cute plump face of his really adorable. A voice rang on my head, the hurtful memories hit me, every single of it, needle my wound with those words I want to cry but Ii can't. I just have enough of my tears fall for idiots.

“Life is hard, but can you continue for me? i ...”, I stopped my words and looked at my hands. These hand are dirty enough, these hand that have gave their best so that they will be loved back, these hand want to feel the warmth of someone kindness. Those words, those glare, those actions, those treatments.

 “Thank you, thank you, thank you, i ... really appreciate it, so...”, I couldn't say anything as a finger inter wit with mine, I turn my right and, there he gave his most innocent and hurtful smile gave to me.

 “No, it should me that thankful, you have cheering me on, thank you for that”, he said and smile at me. “So, let's continue our life by supporting each other, right comrade” He tightens his grip and his serious face appear despite those eye bags and swollen eyes. I nodded. Maybe life is needed with companion that will be by your side even if the world turned against me. You just need to keep moving forward.

The day I want to end up my life, I end up saving this young man life. Maybe, I just need one person to acknowledge me, my own existence.

Maybe he could lead me to a bright future.

Or not ~~

I don’t know, but, I hope I could have fun with this person and my future can held to something that are unknown for me and him

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What am i doing? I have no idea. I just want to write but, while writing this, I am hearing the most confusing songs and there I end up being confuse with the plot of my story ~~~

 #to tall the truth the character not mine~~