Mistake

Why is it the world turn darker and darker as I try to learn something new?

Why?

I'm not sure honey

I will lose myself one day,

The path that i took is at stake or more like at the edge ~

I'm sorry ~

What have I done?

This whole semester is totally ruin 

God know the best of me...

He knew …

While, me…

I don't know what's ahead before me...

As I in my taught and getting deeper, i didn't heard a footstep that walk near me,

Its stop as it stand behind me ~

Both hand in the pockets...

His raspy voice, tremble and said

"Your time is up…"

I nodded my head and stand up, dusting my pants, as I turn my back,

Wearing a hood shirt, he looked at me with his red eyes.

I stumble as his hand trying to reach me, I hit someone behind me and there, a man with purplish eyes, look at me as he grasp my shoulder, tighter.

I struggle to break free from the two men and launch to the gap between them, there two black figure chasing after me. I run as fast as I could

Scared of what I will face despite I never done anything that could harm people. .or

 I don't know.

A gold eyes look straight at me as his mouth keep on smiling, is something amusing about these?

A pinkish eyes, looked at me, keep on yelling my name, begging me to come with him, as his pace keep getting faster to match with mine

Why do they look familiar? Have I met them?

“I’m sorry, I should know better when you’ve hurt the most, no, we should know better”, the red one, seems the leader among them,

“We know, we’re sucks sometimes, no all the time,  but, despite we being jerk towards you… you still put those façade and smile at us, trying to entertainment us, yet we dejected you, we need you, not now, but forever”,  the pink seems, adorable and younger between them

What are they talking about?

“Please come back, you know, no you knew, you understand better than us, you know the words LONELY, you know the feeling, you know, deep down there you know … yet we… disrespect you, isolate you and your mirror”, the gold eyes shouting

And

Are those tears?

Why would they cry over me? Who are they?

“Those mirror that you treasure the most, is your first and last present that we give to you, you love it the most, it’s cheap, yet you could smile happily and kept it safely no matter what, yet we…”, the purple eyes look down.

What mirror?

As my mind bewildered, I didn’t notice a presence in front of me waited with his hand block my way through.

“Please, we need you, mother, father, us, AREN’T WE BROTHER? Shouldn’t we be together till death, do his work? Please don’t leave us, hanging for our guilty and return you feeling towards us. We… WE LOVE YOU”, greenish eyes looked at me, his eyes dark and gloomy, tears run down his cheeks.

He walks slowly and hugged me, sobbing could be heard as his body keep on shaking, it getting tighter and tighter, I recognize his smell, shooting and the smell of…

My brother’s scent, they all gather around me and hiccup could be heard, tears fall down to the sand beach.

After a while of reunion, they break the cuddle and took a deep breath.

“Come let’s go home”, my eldest brother said and snicker at me, yet it feel sincere.

I stop my pace and look at the sunset,

I looked at each of my brother and smile,

“I don’t want to go back, because all I need is here, yes I am happy when sleep  here, no one will bother my existence, it a nuisance, I know, I found myself an annoying living things, yet, why bother me when I have found my happiness? What have been hurt couldn’t be stich up anymore, it has broken into pieces. So, you guys should have fun and please be happy on your accord”, I smile weakly at them, my heart ache and a walk towards the water.

“No!” they are all shouting, the background turn grim and darker. The path I choose is

TO END MY LIFE,

“Are you alright?”

“I’m sorry I have bad dream”

“What’re you dreaming about? “

His face look grim and look at his second brother, even though he always says those cheesy line, he hardly expressed his emotion with others, those mask he wore,

His second  younger look worried as he follow his eyes that eyeing his brother.

“What’s wrong?”

“Do you think he want to kill himself?”

Silence.

“It’s just a silly dream, don’t you think?”

He keep himself at the corner and hide from his brother, it was a mistake for not noticing his changing behavior. Hugging his jacket. What have he done? he could never look his right anymore, his place always beside him. he couldn’t afford to accept the truth. The night that happen so fast that he could never take it back.

He will never comeback. Not in their life anymore., their mistakes take to the death of their dearest brother